Its OVER!!

~~~~I think i decided to stop for while..since i ady dun have the mood to blog..btw..i wish to wish everyone Happy Valentine Days!!and belated Happy Chinese New Year!!this is the year of ox..so mayb im gona be bad luck...but then i still want to thanx to everyone still coming to my blog..thats all for now..till i feel like update....xoxo..papayasyrup~~~
Ps:tomoro is my 1st intervensi o.o

Hey all..so long dint update..actually i wanted to upload my pic de...but since i get robbed then my hp also gone adyy...haiz..T_T seriously i think im vr bad luck this year...oh ya..btw sorry 4sc5 for "fong fei gei"for the class gathering..looks like u all have lotsa of fun...since skol holiday started..well..actually i get hired ady..as a waitress at Xenri Japanese Restaurant...but then the ppl at there so bad..almost all of them like to act act..haiz..i guess every place that have ppl will have "si fei"so me and kui leem decided to fired them..since she feel vry unhappy at there...so now i will continue selling coupon..remember the coupon i said last time..so if u interested call me o...but i havent get back my hp no..so if u wan find me on9 ba...ok now i will talk abt my sad incident..i was going to work that time..then i planning to sit bus de..but then the bus dint wait for me and go like that..so i decided to take taxi..then in the junction there got 2 indian ppl come in and take out knife..so officially i kena ROMPAK!so wat can i do in that situation then..so i giv all my money and my HP..haiz..my newly bought hp!!...and somemore that stupid chinese driver act innocent and say he canot do anything..actually they all one gang de...so next time if u see taxi driver with a small tattoo below his right finger and wearing golden ring at the small finger dun sit...and now i have phobia sitting taxi ady..sad la..really sad..i've been crying all night and keep asking God why is this happening..but since i dint go to church..it feels like He abandoning me..and i cant find my bible that day..so i lend from my bro but he so bad mood and scold me..feels really sad...actualy he's not bad mood...if bad mood takkan the whole 3 month bad mood..duno y since that fight with my bro he treating me like im a stranger..i aso duno wat i can do..i ady compromise him..when he borrow money from me he say nicely but if he dun need favor he keep saying mind ur own business or who are u to say like that...haizz...seriously im really tired figthing with him..but i guess its not my problem coz he evn treat my mom like that..got one day i need to go to work but he aso need to go at 11.30 then at 11.10 my mom ask him to folo m uncle..means go with me la..coz i need to go to work aso..but that time at my aunt house..and he scold my mom i aso duno y he so angry..my mom worry abt him ma..so ask him to go to work earlier since m couz aso lazy to fetch him..but instead he scold my mom so loud until my couz who was sleeping aso wake up..haiz..then that whole day my family dun wan fetch him...until now i aso duno he know is his fault anot..i ask him yesterday nad he say shut up ..wat the...i wish he treat at least like a sister..i've been with him since im a little kid we were born together at sarawak..and we survive through alot of problem..but since now my relationship good with my mom family he always say that "of coz u help them la they buy stuff for u ma"i was like ...i wish he understand y they do that.they onlly concern abt him ma..mayb its a little bit straight but after i think back i think they shld treat him like that becoz he became so arrogant and impulsive ady...he dun even respect my mom..thats wat i think la..i have no idea wat he thinking abt..mayb he love mommy but he dint show it...and this whole month he's like become another person a total stranger to his family..even me...i really cant believe it..i thought he is very close to me..but i guess mayb i have problem..i have problem with my fren,with my bro and even with the ppl i newly meet..mayb im juz a freak..haiz..become so emo ady...im so sorry..sosososososososo sorry..i hope u forgive me..i juz wish that he know that i care abt him...okie..but luckily the robbers dint take my ic and wallet juz take my money and beloved hp...and my bank card..i hope he dint get the correct code..haiz...really depress now...i wish He will be here for me..or at least protect me again...haiz..i aso duno how to comunicate with Him...thats all..i wana watch Gossip Girl ady..cya..in next post..

Ps:i feel really lonely right now!!!=(

Updated!

~~Here I am again..well,today i would like to talk about English..i read alot of newspaper this week..and alot of ppl saying that Maths and Science should continue be taught in English...but i think actually its a good thing la they teach in english..coz its international laguage..but still alot of teachers aso dun hav the standard to teach in english..and our english..its getting poor and even worst..even in newspaper aso got write how bad our English turn to Manglish..and even those big company spell wrong in the notice board..haiz..teruk la...if got the slang like la,ma or meh its ok..coz we're malaysian therefore english should be pronounce correctly and all these the parents should teach since kindergarden..then..Malay aso turns worst...mihun become bihun...then when everybody spell bihun they all thought its correct..luckily that day my teacher ask us to do latihan tatabahasa...then only i know malay and english mix up alot...aiyoyoyo...why am i talking abt this topic again?coz...i got nothing to update and i felt like talking abt this issue...then need a favor from all of u...i know its troublesome la...but pls help me..go to this web...www.themostnatural.com.my..then sign up..then activate the email thingy..then vote for Steven..thanx ya..i really appreciate all ur help...then last week if im not forgotten...my whole familt celerated mooncake festival..wt poolside..but too bad la..that day is raining lightly..but in the end it stopped la..so we all go up again..then we saw got 1 family also celebrated that festival..so like usual we all play candle and i really wanted to burn the 'tanglung' but they say dun waste..wana keep for next year..but anywayz,that day juz after raining only..so mooncake festival without moon..=.= at least i have the experience..nvm..but got alot of type of mooncakes and got my fav type jelly skin de..but somehow it doesnt taste that nice that day..hurm..i promised next post finalllyyy..im goin to post pic and lots of it...so wait for the next post..btw,i browse through some blog then i saw this thing so i juz post up...

Your Birthdate: August 4

You have an extraordinary character - moral, responsible, and disciplined. Your sincerely and honesty shine through in almost every situation. Driven and focused, you rarely let your emotions get the better of you. You're level headed and rational. People count on your to look at things objectively. Your strength: Your unwavering loyalty and ethics Your weakness: Your rock solid stubbornness Your power color: Navy blue Your power symbol: Shield Your power month: April

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz/">What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

yups..thats right i admit im stubborn..hehe..nywayz,at there got alot of quiz so if u wana take any juz go take a look la...ok...now i got nothing to say ady..okla..to be continue...

Ps:btw,my English not that good also..spot the grammar mistakes..yes..im bad at grammar...XP

Depression..GO AWAY!!

~~Well,i've been ponteng alot of days!!if im not mistaken i think for 3 hari berturut-turut..u know wat..i duno why nowadays i dun feel like studying..i wish time can past so fast and i can juz stop goin to skol..but after i think so long and think so deep..i know that if i dun even have a SPM sijil..i wont have a good future..so i decided to keep on study until i finish my SPM then i finally can do wat i wan to do...this few days..depression has taken over me..there's once i feel like suicide..but i know its a stupid thinking...if suicide really can solve my problems..i guess im already dead by now...so i'll take another alternatives..and i opt to finish wat i have started..i know that maybe my life is really that bored..but it feels like everything doesnt make sense anymore...i guess my depression is really deep that i think it can sinked me..so i dun wana go to skol for these 3 days..to let my mine relax...coz i think if really i heard anything i uncomfortable i scared that i will really do stupid stuff...actually i dun mind suicide since my life is meaningless..but i dun wan my family to mourn my death..and waste money for stuff like funeral...well,at least know i still have God..and he will always be on my side..until the day i go to heaven..lolx..being so emo rite now...im sorry..but i juz cant control it..i feel like a volcano goin to explode...a sea full of water is goin to poured out..but when i cry nothing came out..i thought by crying i can feel better..but instead i feel worst....im so useless..cry aso not even a single tear come out...haiz...i felt like this song.....=( T.T(sobs)

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make itI just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend thatI'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far awayAnd it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

felt so emo rite now.. but i think im gonna be ok..im a survivor..all these is juz a minor things i go through in my life..i think when in 10 yrs later when i see back these post i will laugh my heart out...but somehow all these are not silly things i felt rite know...either 1 of it can bring me down or make me standing still...there's this quote i duno where i see it but i really like it..."If u can't get rid of them,be friends with them" and also this quote.."If u don't stand for something,you will fall for anything"..sounds familiar rite?actually i saw it at skol....there's alot of quote and motivation message...so i'll think positive and go through all the challenges in my life...u know what i do all these day?i watch movie or dramas..by watching all these show i can relax and won't simply think...at least i know im not the only one go through these phase....haiz...i guess...i wrote alot ady..so i think im gona stop now...btw,Gossip Girl Season 2 Episode 2 has came out..so addictive man this show..and somehow quite encouraging...i know my language is vry bad la..with the malaysian slang and all..and grammar error..and lousy peribahasa..haiz...but wat to do im malaysian ma..anywayz,,take care everyone..until i update again...well,i know maybe no one is reading this blog..but i still blog is to express how i felt..so my advice is...if u feel emo like me..juz listen to songs..and sing ur heart out,u will feel much better..after all, no music no life!peace..xoxo...papayasyrup..=.=

Ps:Crying is a better way to release stress..but somehow doesnt work for me...so i opt for music

Finally..updated!!

~~Hey guys!so long dint update ady..well,actually not much ppl visit my blog so i dint update so frequent...and im aso quite bored with blogging ady..well..actually not much to update...my homework=die..and the my studies=remain untouched...so all aso not good so nothing to update..haiz..my relationship=broken...so vry sad la..duno y ody so angry with me...then when i ask she's not telling aso...so in the end i waste all my credit to ask abt her..then i vry sad..so ask carr ine for advice..and she say one word that makes sense.."if that friend is not meant to be then is not meant to be"...so all i can do now is wait and wait...since she dun care abt our friendship..and all she know is to just complain she dun have friend when she's with me..so it means im not her friend la..when she lonely i teman her..then when she's with her friend she act as if im invisible..so fed up with it..i thought best friend supose to sick together..but i guess...only i treat her as best friend..sory..i know my english is not good so forgive me....so..okie..enough with the complaining..the good news is..i get a new hp from my uncle W580i!!for my birthday present...so very thankful for it..then my family aso 'so-called' suprise me for my birthday..and they brought me to karaoke...so quite fun la that time..but no mood so i guess they all quite disapointed aso..but in the end i aso got sing a few song...so at least i dint waste the money la..i tell u the karaoke at k4 damn char le...the service aso vry bad..they all treat me as if im their enemy...not even one staff smile..once i look at them fell like kick their butt...so teruk...apa la..haiz..relax....then..erm....today is Hari Merdeka ke-51..but its feel like normal day...dun why year by year..its like evryone dun have the merdeka spirit..sad la..see the independent day like...especially if those foreign visitor saw..damn memalukan...haiz...and then juz now juz b4 the countdown of merdeka..my family and i playing this game call www.meetoto.com...its abt singing de...so if u wan to practice ur karaoke singing can go visit that website la..its vry funny..hear those ppl singing...and there's aso this wen www.viwawa.com so go check it out both aso no need download..juz register then can play le..i also start watching Gossip Girl!!and i cant wait for second season..its coming out..September 1 i think..so if u all havent watch go watch it..u wont regret nad this is the critic they give to Gossip Girl but they turn it into a comercial add..haha smart

..and im selling this coupon aso..juz cost rm29.90 then can enjoy 1 facial,body slimming and body massage..so who interested contact me la..ok thats all..Selamat Hari Merdeka!!good night everyone!!remember more merdeka spirit!!ciouz...xoxo..papayasyrup

Ps:juz ate cake again..so full=.=

Songs

im back!pls go to this web www.themostnatural.com.my and vote for steven..thanx alot yea...juz sign up and vote...thanx alot..back to blogging...tomoro is larian saujana..so need to wake up early on Saturday..haiz...been forced to come...anywayz,exam coming 21july..omg...havent even prepare..haiz..bicara akademik coming soon..so i guess my parents gonna be vry disapointed in me...stress stress >.<..gonna blow up..haiz..seriously now ody really changed ady or she is like dat...evrytime aso i wait for her...but then when got other ppl then she dun answer me..act like as if im not der...recess aso i come up early to teman her..but now evrytime she come up so late..coz last time she come up early..but i come up late coz at canteen ma..since then i always go up early ady..coz she say vry lonely..now once she got fren she juz neglected me...hope she dint read this..coz then she will say "aiya u juz sensitive la"..then when i tell her abt the rumour aso evrytime she disagree and say some ppl like dat de...find la like dat..today she ask me why i so quiet then i told her why la...like i guess...she juz dun care..then next time i wont tell her ady...mayb coz she's different than other ppl that i know..thats y..but i duno our friendship can last long anot...coz seriously she loves attention but she always denied that..or mayb she was given attention since last time..so tak biasa when sudenly not attention given to her...i told her alot of things she aso deny..haiz...moody now...i add the happy-o-meter thingy ady hehe...so cute..anywayz,i will juz forget abt it..wat done is done....now need to prepare for exam...until i update again...xoxo..~~Your believe is your greatest motivator never let it die~~

Ps:pls vote for him evryday if can...i will be vry thankful!^^